Today is July 16th, and there is almost exactly one month left before my 19th summer draws to a close. I’ve had an up and down summer, with pretty sky high moments and my fair share of bottom-of-the ocean lows. … Continue reading Life & Blog Update
You don’t have to listen to country music to know who Carrie Underwood is. She’s a gorgeous blonde singer known for her girl power and bombshell voice. She talks about getting revenge on cheating boyfriends and being an all-American girl. … Continue reading Temporary Home
I have been home for a few days now, and yet the boxes of miscellaneous papers, folders, and random clothing I’ve acquired are still sprinkled around the house. It’s great to be home and with my family and dogs and … Continue reading My First Year of College: Part II
This is my last week of my first year of college. And boy have I learned some things. I’ve learned how to be strong on my own, but I’ve had my weaker moments. I’ve learned that it’s such a blessing to … Continue reading My First Year of College Part I
I went home over this past weekend, and a few things happen when I go home. I eat way too much. I somehow manage to pick apart my already-bare closet and leave a tornado of evidence. I always go through my old things, even though I know this is a danger zone to proceed with caution only. And yet, I never take mind of my own warning as I frivolously flip through old notes, pictures, letters, and every other old memory that I keep tucked away in a shoebox and out of mind. These shoeboxes used to be my own … Continue reading Ghosts of The Past
If the title didn’t make you roll your eyes in disgust and you kept reading, I would like to say thank you. If the title made you gag and laugh out loud and yet you still kept reading, I am … Continue reading I’m Dating My Best Friend
Sometimes, as I read through my old blog posts, I curse myself for being so creative, for writing so well. Though this may sound like a blessing in disguise, I am sad to confess I’ve looked at many things through a negative mindset in the past year. Instead of thinking, “I wrote breath-taking posts, and I still write wonderfully!” I think to myself, “Damn it. I am one year older than I was at that time, and I can’t even compare my writing today to then. All momentum is gone. There is no sun. I cry so much. Why am … Continue reading Reawaken
Being that I (still) don’t know many people here in college, it always catches me off guard when someone stops to ask “how are you?” “Good,” I reply quickly, a conditioned response. “How are you?” I never quite listen all the way through to their answer, partly because it’s the same as mine and partly because I just lied. Again. Because believe it or not, I’m not “good”. I’m anxious a lot of the time, about scenarios that never happen. That doesn’t deter my anxiety though. I’m not “okay”. I miss my family and my dogs and my boyfriend and my shower and … Continue reading How Are You?
The more familiar I become in my new city, the more I get asked: what does it mean? “What do you mean, what does it mean?” I ask, with as much confusion as I can muster. Because a lot of … Continue reading False Fulfillment
Thursday nights in college are technically the weekend, and I can’t tell if I love it or hate it. My outer, nearly nineteen-year old self wants to jump at the opportunities and live vicariously, but my inner forty-year old woman would prefer to put on sweatpants and curl up in a blanket while drinking herbal tea. Even though I’ve made it to the weekend, this week was absolute hell. Guns and Math 101 make the world a miserable place. For those two reasons, this was one of the most overwhelming weeks of my life. The worst part was, I had … Continue reading Guns & Math
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